February 2012
2 posts
Eyes wide open pillow blog
There’s always going to be younger, prettier, wealthier guys. Presumably better “educated”.
They’ve always has been there, lurking in shadows of my mind.
But more often than not, nowadays, they lurk behind me in line spewing uninformed drivel while I wait for coffee.
My only regret in all this? If I had never started drinking coffee 17 years ago, I wouldn’t be...
I’ve given a lot to some people. Others…not so much.
I was just thinking about that last night.
January 2012
3 posts
In a way my method of social climbing is one of the most ancient. I went and fought as a soldier for a chance to improve my station. Except I was given college instead of looted gold.
It’ll never be me
November 2011
3 posts
So after last night it became clear that it was never really me, it was that I was unavailable.
Positions have been changed accordingly.
I find myself wishing for a desert and a war.
It’s all very tedious and predictable
All of it
Seemingly single in time for the holidays
October 2011
1 post
The tattoos, scars, and pains that are my body remind me of who I’ve been, and where I’ve been that person.
The insight that comes with it was not bought cheaply. Free of pose and the need to prove to myself; I am neither pretty or ugly, young nor old.
September 2011
1 post
And I love you….
Just thought you should know
January 2011
1 post
October 2010
2 posts
I don’t need a pretty home, I need a functional one
I don’t need a hot girlfriend, I need one I love
I don’t need dreams, I know what I want
I guess I’ve grown up
Oh, there just isn't enough of me
September 2010
7 posts
Recent events have just about routed me
When I think of everything I’ve survived, how can this be hurting me?
I'm done writing, I suck at it, I'm done
hurting
its my own damn fault for thinking I was being...
would rather just be lonely than have to deal with the anxiety of possible not being lonely
August 2010
11 posts
“i’ve always said that the dividing line between internet natives and their elder...”
– fred-wilson
TEAM INTERNET.
Also at first I thought this said, “Whether or not you had sex on the Internet first,” and I kind of freaked out.
(via meaghano)
Crap...I really like her
NY Times: What Is It About 20-Somethings? →
sleepspent:
honeyinyourtea:
libraries:
“Ask them if they agree with the statement “I am very sure that someday I will get to where I want to be in life,” and 96 percent of them will say yes. But despite elements that are exciting, even exhilarating, about being this age, there is a downside, too: dread, frustration, uncertainty, a sense of not quite understanding the rules of the game. More...
Oh and I hope
that I’m doing this right and not making a huge fool of myself. This is person is hard to read, but that alone is so very nice.
Providence tumblr Meetup.
sleepspent:
fuckyeahrhodeisland:
It’s official.
Why would I want to do this? anonymity is a gift.
Oh how frail we can be. Desperate when faced with loneliness. How much we can change how we see somebody else to make them suit what we think we need.
But we can never change them.
Dormant creativity is starting to wake up inside...
3 Strikes (a story of a film student who demanded...
Well a few months ago a group of film students for a school project made commercials for my non-profit group.
It was cool, we got along famously. Then…
the ring leader calls demanding a little less than a thousand dollars in expenses (gas money primarily). My initial instinct is to say “Go fuck yourself”. But fortunately cooler heads prevailed.
So I was selected to sort this...
two hours late!!! gar!!
strike two, though last night should have been just an out
I’m done being blown off
July 2010
8 posts
Lady in Black- Uriah Heep
She came to me one morning One lonely Sunday morning Her long hair flowing In the midwinter wind I know not how she found me For in darkness I was walking And destruction lay around me From a fight I could not win Ah ah ah … She asked me name my foe then I said the need within some men To fight and kill their brothers Without thought of love or God And I begged her give me horses To trample...
Everyday
You see, I work by the water, in a rich tourist town. Every day I all these young women wearing tiny shorts.
Everyday I think to myself: That’s gotta to be it, they can’t get any smaller than that.
Everyday I discover I was wrong in that assumption. I suppose I should take this as a step away from our puritan roots and be happy. (Sorry to tell you America, but aside from extreme...
You taught me to sleep in the dark
19 years ago I met you
when I was ten…
I kept my door cracked at night, to protect me from all the gollums and monsters in the world
you would creep in my room at night on four paws and try to sleep on my chest
I loved you
but I had to close my door
you taught me how to sleep in the dark
19 years later you would sleep by my feet, and try to watch out my window
we both knew you could...
very smart, and very beautiful….
lot of great ideas
but seriously
you need to get over yourself…..we work, we eat, we get unhappy, we get happy again.
but ultimately its simply what we make of it ourselves
quick disclaimer about the friendship post
that wasn’t directed at anyone in particular….I had just been thinking of the many friendships I’ve had and have, and thought of key words to describe. then did that cheesy post.
It was a lot cooler in my head. Lol
oh well
Self-Aggrandizing
Combat Leader, international traveler, war hero, business owner, educator, local legend, rated “genius”, critically acclaimed in several of the above, PTSD survivor
did I forget anything?
well, for the inside the box thinkers
for my next trick…. I’ll just go ahead and get a degree or two…
after that? probably Africa…America is starting to annoy me
6...
FRIENDSHIP
wasted effort
taken advantage of
quid pro quo
left at the whim of unreasonable
sunny days
new beginnings
needing less than actually needed
I love women in mirror shade aviators..
June 2010
5 posts
When it comes apart
and fails
and it will…mark my words
I’m going to have such a mess to clean up
I guess somebody must be doing a-okay, because I’m not getting a response
lovely how that works
There are days
where I truly love my business
There are also days where I want to destroy absolutely everything on Aquidneck Island
Ah, I’ve been quoted by a Tumblr heavy weight…..
fairly and all, I was writing about her….
To any new followers, just ignore my “emo” type postings….I use this as a spur of the moment dumping ground more than anything else for very temporary bouts of insecurity.
The girls on OKcupid keep getting farther away...
in a geographical sense.
The ones nearby… either had no interest in me… or I in them.
At best I’m picky. Not so much in a physical sense, physically the women who have romantically passed through my life have had little in common. Some thin, some full figured, some blonde, some brunette…etc..etc.
But they’ve all had a certain sense of humor, and a certain...
May 2010
8 posts
It doesn’t need to be all self motivational pseudo psychology BS:
this is how I do it:
I figure out what I want
I figure out how to get it
Then I do it
I remember when we first met and we were figuring each other out, and you wanted me to just be there while you studied.
we talked about books and you told me you’d mend Fred the Bear, because he’s 29 years old and needs stitching.
Well, you don’t want me around anymore
Fred is still in the corner of my room in need of stitching
“Quietly he slipped away again, feeling that his purpose had been served. As his form faded away the smile on his face was crooked. He would never be far away.”
doing the right thing is its own satisfaction
so few people get that anymore